Grieving is tedious. It has been a little more than 2 months since Jane died and it is getting harder every day. The first few weeks I was numb. Now I am beginning to feel again and what I am feeling is not fun.
It is extremely cruel that someone as smart as Jane found her ability to think and study affected by a brain tumour. Because of its location in the brain, it mainly affected her memory, personality, ability to process information and give feedback on things she was asked. Still, between her diagnosis in 2005 and her death, aged 27, in 2011, Jane got herself a BSc, an MSc and nearly a PhD from Warwick University.
I get huge comfort from doing things that are related to Jane. Be it writing a blog about her or looking through pictures. I want to use this in a positive way. So I am raising money for the Cynthia Spencer Hospice.
The Cynthia Spencer Hospice cared for Jane twice. In October 2010, whilst I moved us into a new flat that enabled Jane to stay at home until the end, the Hospice looked after Jane and sorted out symptom control. After she came home, we had 7 wonderful months together in which we made a few final trips.
Then, when the end was close, Jane returned to Cynthia Spencer Hospice for her final 10 days. The staff are fantastic and made me feel so much better in the circumstances.
I have decided to back to university next year so that I can become a palliative care nurse and make sure others get the same fantastic care when they need it most.
You don’t have to do something so drastic. You can just give money!
The Cynthia Spencer Hospice is NHS-funded but they need additional money from charity to pay for extra nurses and other things the NHS does not pay for.
I am hoping to do a number of things to raise money for the hospice. Every penny helps so even if you just donate your small change to this, it would be brilliant.
Please visit my fundraising page at http://justgiving.com/Bouncybean.
Alternatively, get your mobile phone and text BEAN83 £5 to 70070 to donate £5. You can obviously change the amount to anything up to £10. To donate more than £10, or if you are donating from abroad, go to the JustGiving page.