22nd Jun2005

Bugger

by Dutchcloggie

Post from JD

Degree results at 3.00pm tomorrow.
Biopsy results and meeting with consultant and ‘the other guy who deals with these types of things’ at 3.30pm tomorrow.

This really sucks.

Do I deal with this with copious amounts of alcohol at lunch tomorrow or just suck it up and soldier on?

It’s ok when I just have a bad day (I tend to have them quite a bit). It’s different when you know that tomorrow will be a bad day. Is that being overly negative? Am I just preparing myself for the worst by believing it is a bad day so that I won’t be too disappointed?

My mind is racing with all of the possibilities. Early death with no chance of getting the job that I want because I have a shite degree classification? Early death, good job? Shite job, alive for longer? Argh.

I’d like a switch in my head to flip when I get like this.

13th Jun2005

Home

by Dutchcloggie

Post from JD

Hi everyone. I’m at home and have been since Thursday afternoon. Naturally it has taken me ages to get round to blogging but I have been even more restrained than normal as too much time at the computer would be bad.

I’m feeling really good at the moment. So much better than I thought I would. I’m still taking a raft of drugs but my dosage is reduced all the time.

Thank you for all of your kind words of support for myself and Marieke. I’ll write more after I have the staples out today. Wuhoo!